
I think Nietzsche said something about only believing in a god who knew how to dance. I think I might have to adopt that requirement as well. Dancing seems to me something altogether transcendental. I believe Krishna danced with the milkmaids (ha--very applicable to my life), and so Krishna has the 1up in this case.
Last year I went on a long hike by myself. I was taking a risk. I admit that. Hiking alone as a teenage girl on a remote trail is probably not the wisest thing I've done. But I did this because I enjoy hiking alone much more than with someone else. I have no obligation to talk, and if I decide to talk I am at liberty to do that as well, and the forest will swallow up my words. I can go at my own speed rather than worrying about going too fast for my companion(s). I am something of a speed-hiker. I reach a hiker's high and feel as if I could hike for days without slowing. This feeling is addictive, and I relish it more when I am alone. The hike was a long one--longer than I anticipated, and it was all downhill, so I had the uphill climb on the way back to look forward to. But I was determined to see the waterfall at the bottom.
When I finally did get to the bottom, and the waterfall stood before me, my first thought was, "the face of god." This came out of nowhere, but I was so awestruck by the majesty of it that I could barely stand up. I felt as if I had suddenly been enlightened. And in truth, I don't suppose this waterfall could compare to a great many waterfalls out there. The cliff was probably no more than 30 feet high, and rather than a rushing cascade of water gushing over the edge, the flow was little more than a stream. But something about the cool, damp rocks and the spray and ferns growing in the tiny crevices and the ancient look that carved stone has made me think of god--of a god that I do not believe in.
There have been few moments in my life that made me think of god, much less the face of god. I once saw the face of god in my great-grandmother's hands. I have an incredible weakness for aged hands. The wrinkles form a topographic map. I like to think an entire life can be seen in the hands, and I pity the person who goes to his or her grave after a long life and still has smooth hands. Our hands are like the most intimate diary, and blank hands inspire little awe. I chose the Sharecropper by Elizabeth Catlett for this blog because this is the face of my god. Perfection means little to me, and I do not want qualities that I do not appreciate to be present in my god. The lines in the face, the years of toil, the gentle expression--these are things I appreciate. My god is a sharecropper--oppressed perhaps, but infinitely strong and invincible. A face we will remember and hands we can relate to. And of course, feet that dance.
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